numbering my days

I just heard this morning that Zac Smith passed away yesterday (You should check out his blog. He had some amazing things to say during his battle with cancer). I didn’t know Zac personally but had connected to him via twitter and had been praying for him. Zac was a young man with a young family and my heart is heavy for them today. Add that to a fact that I had a dream about randomly connecting to Matt Chandler who’s fighting his own battle with cancer now and my Mom’s battle (that she’s winning btw) with cancer and my thoughts this morning are quickly drifting to Psalm 90.

Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom. (Psalm 90:12)

When things like this I’m always thinking about the brevity of my life and how I want to spend it doing what matters. In many ways I have moments of significance surrounding me every day. But what I’m coming to realize that my purposed “search for significance” is actually a deep desire to live totally for Jesus. My heart aches when I know He doesn’t have my all and tears come quickly when I think of how much more I could (and should) give to and for Him.

I recently started a song reflecting on these thoughts and thought I’d share the first draft chorus of “Life is too Short”:

Life is too short to live without purpose

Life is too short to live it afraid

Life too precious to live it out selfishly

Life is too short to not count my days

My prayer for today is that the internal countdown in my heart will lead to more passion for Jesus and greater action in my steps to follow Him. How do you count your days?